Hey, dude,

Sorry, I know this is a lot to read, especially since I am not writing to say I want to fuck you and dominate you (which, actually, I'd love to do, but I'm HIV+ and am not a liar -- like so many other people who either lie deliberately cuz they want to fuck so bad, and maybe they want to infect others so badly too, that they lie, or they lie without knowing it, if they have become poz only since their last test and don't know it yet.)

I am writing because I give a shit whether or not you get HIV, at least enough to write you, so please, whatever your reaction is, don't be angry with me -- I only have your welfare and health in mind. If I were a more selfish top, and knew how to keep my thoughts to myself, I wouldn't say anything at all... time would pass... I could just wait for you to get the bug, and then fuck you bareback when the last line of your ads read "be 420 friendly" and you just don't feel like typing the "be hiv neg" anymore, cuz it don't matter.

Just curious how long you think it's going to last, and by "it", I mean your being able to have casual sex, as a bottom, maybe while high on something, partying, and having guys fuck you bareback, and being able to continue saying that you are HIV-negative.

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Neg for bb?

you KNOW how ridiculous that is, right?

"Oh yeah, I'm neg, I want to fuck you bb."

(hot fuck ensues... big hot load of cum up your hot ass. . . )

etc etc etc.

Then, 2 weeks later: "Oh, hey, dude, remember me? We fucked a couple weeks ago. I just tested poz the other day, sorry!")

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I wasn't going to even mention the other entirely possible outcome, which is that some twisted disgusting and truly evil-minded guy will lie to guys about their status, to purposely infect them, and count those new infections as some sick notch on their belt of horrors. I've talked to guys who say they are into doing that, and they are deadly serious about the fact that they have done it, and do it, and get off on it. I wasn't going to mention it because it seems too horrific to be true, but in truth, it is too diabolical and too common to leave out. But hey, if you choose to trust a complete stranger's word about something so minor as HIV, well, you have every right to make that choice, but if you have read this, you will no longer be naive about the kinds of people out there going around promising up and down that they've got clean sperm.

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I *know* it's none of my business what you do. Also, I have absolutely no idea what it is like to be HIV-negative. I got HIV in 1983, when I was 19 years old. Safe sex did not exist. So it was a different world, and I cannot imagine what it must be like to be, and to try to remain, HIV-negative. So I don't pretend to know what it is like, and I don't judge you. But I read a message like yours and I think of the guys who have gotten HIV by only fucking bareback with other "neg" guys. It Happens so often I could cry. In the year 2005 alone, fourteen of my friends became HIV+ by practicing the method of prevention you are using.

Hey, maybe you know what you are doing, and are accepting the risk that you are taking. But in case you didn't know, I'm writing to inform you. Make your own decision, obviously... you are a grown-up and have to live with whatever choices you make.

HIV is no picnic, though. Sure, I've had it more than 23 years, and have never been sick and look and feel perfectly healthy. But that's not the case for many many (millions) of people who are sick and who are now dead.

Write me back, or not, as you wish, but please don't write me some angry tirade about minding my own business. If i didn't feel so strongly about preventing guys from getting HIV in the first place, I wouldn't write you at all. So, I hope you will take this in the well-intentioned spirit it was written.

Open Letter to HIV-negative Guys Who Bareback

All righty, then. I assume by your non-reply that you aren't very comfortable with whatever decision you have made, if you have made any at all, about who you are going to let fuck you bb, how you are going to know if someone is HIV-negative or not, so, I'm just going to send you this information.

It's not meant to piss you off. I send you this with the best of intentions, for your continued health and welfare. If you choose to see it differently, please keep that to yourself, however, if you would like to ask me any questions, or comment, or whatever, that's great.

Thanks,


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Just curious how long you think it's going to last, this practice of yours to have casual sex, as a bottom, while partying, -- hey, what you do is not my business, and I am not saying it is my business, not by a long shot. But don't pretend that just because you requested in your ad that all cummers be HIV-negative, means that they are HIV-negative. Some might be. Some might have been at the time of their most recent HIV-test, whenever that was. Some just outright lie. You have to know that those people are out there, and some do lie about their status out of malice, out of contempt and hatred for humanity. Others lie a more innocent lie, out of shame, or fear, or any number of psychological complexes and neuroses that only matter in that they can wind up getting your ass full of the Human Immunodeficiency Virus... a virus which I urge you not to invite into your life.

So, how long do you believe you can play this Russian roulette without getting a bullet between the eyes? Six months? A Year? Two weeks?

You don't need to answer to me, obviously, but having lived with HIV for 24 years (I'm only 42, you do the math) one thing I don't pretend is to understand what it's like to be HIV-negative in a world of poz guys barebacking, the mystique, I know, is compelling. But then, taking meds every day forever is compelling, too. So are quarterly trips to the doctor's office for blood draws. And the dread that the meds will stop working, that I'll die twenty years before my parents, 40 years before all of my friends.

So I know that your rationale for your night of fun is either because you are:

1. Stupid and haven't thought about the likelihood that one of the "loads" is from someone who is either truthfully saying that he is HIV-negative, but that's only as of his most recent HIV-test, whenever that was. And if he's a guy who only barebacks with other HIV-negative guys, then I'm sure that's fine.
   
   Fourteen of my friends became HIV+ doing what you're doing, and that was just in 2004, from January to November.
   
   
2. Already HIV+ and just do this for the thrill of seeing what guys will show up, actually hoping to have some sick fuck show up who you already know to be Positive. (I met a guy who was into that trip once, and still don't understand that particulary psychosis).
   
   
3. Just assuming that it's just a matter of time til you get HIV, and you figure you can at least delay it by "requesting" that your loads be from NEG cocks. Good luck with that.
   

Cheers,

PS -- Hopefully it's obvious that I didn't go to the trouble of writing you to piss you off or ruin your night. If somehow you think about this, and decide to change your behaviour, or not, but at least think about what you are doing in a conscious way, then I'm happy. I have written guys in similiar circumstances and I know it has been helpful to them. For me, I can't in good conscience read a post such as yours and not take some action, so if you feel anger or bitterness towards me, I apologize, however, there is no mean spirited intent in my writing, only good, only joy. If you find you have questions, or want to write back, or talk sometime, that's cool, I'm open to that (i'm not some freak, just someone with a good mind and heart).

Take care,

Will

Bitch, You Cast Your Net Too Damn Wide (The Point of San Diego)

So there's this Muscle Pig "bottom" who Point-edly insists on describing himself as super hot, hot ass, muscled, blah blah blah, and says what a great time he and I will have, when we fuck and party. So far, though, every time we are going to get together, it turns out that at the last minute, he is either already busy with someone else, or just decides to hook up with someone else -- so I've deduced that he is either casting a wide net, and whoever is first to respond and is available as soon as HE is available, gets him. OR, he's completely fucking with me, but I don't think he's got anything in for me in particular, he's just selfish and takes what he wants and doesn't think for a moment about how anyone he comes into contact feels about anything -- it's all ME ME ME, MY LUSTS, MY HOLE.

It strikes me as a pretty fucked up way to go through life. And so, if you're reading this, mister "only party once in a while and so pardon me but I do as I please -- yes we had plans but like I said I only do this once in a while and I have to get what I can get when I can get it, not wait around" -- if indeed you are reading this, next time you write me wanting cock, -- oh fuck, why am I bothering to say anything at all to the vain princess -- he wouldn't even notice if he gets a response from me next time or not -- he'll already be driving off in search of that alternate cock.
And so, another lonely j/o session for me. Gnite San Diego.

This is an UNJUST world, where I am a handsome hot looking guy, hung, and I'm jacking off, alone, because I'm not a selfish asshole, and to get turned on, I need connection, more than saying "Hi, man" to a stranger strummed to the tune of "Zippers Unzipping". Sometimes I wish I could be a "normal" faggot, who believes that sex is "just sex", but when I'm thinking right and not down like I am now, I am truly glad that my wiring is different. It's just crappy when it seems like everyone else is getting laid, and often, and I'm not getting any. :-((((